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That's if anyone is still on here.

GAHHH I hate this. People are still asking me if i'm going out with my jerk ex-boyfriend. I hate it i mean hello do you see me with him do you see me holding hands! gahh people are like telling me to go back with him and i'm like " oh hellz no ". It getting on my nerves. My own best friend even told me to get back with him. I told no i already told you he a jerk. I mean even we we're going out he was flirting with some other girls right infront of me. And he called himself sweet in what "WORLD"! It really getting to me I hate it. Not only that i had that taks test today which was sucky because it was hard to me. I was stuck with it till 4:36 pm. RAWR MAN RAWR! it has been a long month for me. I have yet not smile a real smile. I waitin for that day to come. For three years it been diffecult for me. I lost some scratch that out all of my really close friends. I've been depress cause of that. I HATE THIS BOY CALLED JC! I hate HATE HIM! he on my freakin nerves. We'll be talkin then he says something that gets on my nerves. HE told me that he still doesn't like my bff. I told him off cause of that. I told him at least she doesn't talk bad about you and that if someone talks crap about him she stands up for him. ANd he didn't care. I got so mad that i don't even look at him or talk to him. He got me super mad that day. I complete lost my respect for him. Gahh everything is being a drag. But god will help me threw out my life and i'm greatful for that. Well yeah life hard but ehh it life right tehee. So yeah i'm going to make new stuff for my stoires life "konoha middle school " and new poems so yeah i hope you'll comment them^^ well g2g pips. HIPPIS RULE AND SO DO HOBOS!!!! Peace yal and goodbye
   <3 yal guys^^



My poems for the months ( i made them up^^ hope u like them^^)

"I was never living my dream all this my so called life is a nightmare that i can't ever wake up from this is a living nightmare -brenda"

"She looks outside trying to find the good times that so happen to her she closes her eyes slowly with tears running down it like acid to her- Brenda"

"sky oh sky tears fill up in my eyes i wonder why if i'll turn to a butterfly will i be fine or would i die oh butterfly just fly away to the sky live a happy life in the gray and blue sky cause i'm still a caterpillar in a tree waitin to be free"

sky oh sky tears fill up in my eyes i wonder why if i'll turn to a butterfly will i be fine or would i die oh butterfly just fly away"

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GAHH i life is being so great i guess. My Math TAKS is coming up which is scary cause i not that good at i math. I mean i do good but when it comes down to the real thing i blank out completeky. GAHH AND IT ON THE APRIL THE 7!!!!! which is scary!!! I also broke up woth my boyfriend. He wasn't the guy i thought he was. I don't want a guy who talks back to teachers or talks bad about thier friends. So yeah I broke up with him on april fools day which i know he probly took it as a joke but no i told him this was no joke. He took it very well. Which surprise me that he didn't feel sad at all instead he was happy which made me alright cause i was very very happy that I broke up with him. I was dancing and yelling in joy. Hehe It was a good day. So yeah lots of stuff is still coming. CAUSE SCHOOL GOING TO BE OUT IN 2 MONTHS!!!!! CAN'T YOU BELIEVE IT!!!!!!! so yeah i kinda sad cause I'm going to miss my 8th grade year but happy cause i'm going to be a fishy... NEVER MIND ME WANT TO STAY YOUNG 4EVER!!!!!!!! gahh well hehe we all have to it part of life hehe. well got to go remember HOBO RULES!!! AND HIPPIS TO!!!!!!! hehe well me out bye bye!!!

poem's of the month

" this feeling i have is causing me something i never felt for something is with me and I need help for what ever is wrong for i might have no feeling's" - by me brenda

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yes finally at last for thirthteen years i've been waiting to have a boyfriend and now i do yayy!!!!!!!!!!!! BUt today was horrible i was crying during my Fifth period cause during lunch I didn't know what to do in a realation ship so I just hung around with my best friend Jessica a/k/a " Suducca". then my best guy friend comes and says " hey why arent you hangin around with your boy friend. I asked him " Am i suppise to do that?" He my first boyfriend and I didn't know what to do. So all my boyfriend guy friends start pulling him to me which made me kinda nervous wait kinda I MEAN ALOT nervous that i wanted to cry but SUduca was hugging me saying " don't be nervous it going to be okay ". Well we finally got together and we we're walking then my friends val and angie come and start forcing us to hold hands. i felt bad for him cause we didn't want to. so when the bell rang to go to our period I was crying cause i felt bad. My friend Kimberly was talking to me giving me advice it was werid cause i usally give her advice im like her thyrpest. well anyway yeah but everything turned out all right. He called me and got to know more of each other with out people looking at me and him. hehe. I thank god for him he everything that i prayed for. hehe but then my friend Maria is going all sad cause she doesn't have a boyfriend and she being all emo which makes me mad cause instead of being happy she being sad. Well i'm trying everything i can to make her happy.

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"for i look up to see the night a star flys bye i make a wish but i know it won't come true so tears form in my eyes knowing dreams never come true~-brenda   "

"i look out side and see the past memories we shared but up to today it nothing but the past that has no meaning damn these tears that i shead- Brenda"

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my poem for this is
"good times last for a while so keep it in your memories cause when you feel down try to think back from the so called good old days."- Brenda

and a quote from my manga haru says "
you help me threw out the years but now STOP I can walk on my own if I fall let me it'll teach me I can do things on my own. Daidairo i'm sorry- haru"

dansenwating for the right time waiting for the day to come so i can run out of this cruel world we live in for as i run bloody tears come down as I yell GOAWAY~brenda

I don't care about this love i see in children eye's I don't need it I don't even care about it, I'll bleed out my tears so that they can see my pain- Brenda

hey guys whats up. just sayin i'm going to be posting up even more poetry threw out the month and " konoha middle school" too. Gahhh school going so fine i know i'll be a fishie next year!!!!!! LIFE IS SO HARD IT NOT FAIR!!!!!!!! well what ever i been takin a test what i'm going to be when i grow up and so far the results said i'm neither going to be a thyrepest, poet write, music teacher ( never will i be a teacher ) and my favorite AN ACTOR!!!!!!!!!!! i love drama hehe well anyways i saw my grandama on saterday ^^ i haven't seen her sonce like what 2-3 years it been a long time. And oh yeah valatimes is coming up. >___< i like it but i never have one of thoes secret admire. I mean yeah it'll be nice if i did but for now i son't have one. My friends like hate it big time. ehh well what ever i'll keep you guys on track to see what happin 2 me hehe !!!^^ WELL BYE BYE C YA HOBOS RULE AND HIPPIS TO !!!!!!!!! LOVIN YAL BYE BYE^^ and oh yeah my new phrase is " stab stab my heart out" hehe werid right i was bored so yeah well bye!!!!!!




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